Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Deep Thoughts...

For as long as I can remember I have had VERY vivid dreams at night. I will awake in the morning not knowing if my dream was real or not. I have even been known to carry on conversations at night and scare the living day lights out of my husband.

But last night, last night was different. While I did have a dream, one in which I will share with you in a moment, it was, shall I say, not as detailed as normal. It was more of an abstract dream, with muted colors and many questions were left unanswered at the end of the dream. However, I think that Someone wanted me to wake up and answer the questions and interpret the dream myself. This dream has changed my life, it has made me think of where I want to go and who I want to be.

This was my dream...

We were in Vegas(in real life we just got back from Vegas) and I was trying to get back to our room. I kept turning down the wrong hallways and getting lost, when finally I found an escalator. The escalator was broken(also a common problem on our recent trip) but I climbed it anyway. As I neared the top, I could see a huge gap between the top of the escalator and the flooring. I continued to climb. When I reached the top I knew that I would have to jump, so I gave it everything I had and jumped. I didn't quite make it and I grabbed a brass rail, as I began to plummet into the gap. An elderly woman was down the hallway on my right and she chuckled and told me that this was not the right way. Duh, like I didn't already know that. Plus, why wasn't she helping me? She pointed me to an old staircase next to the escalator and said, "That is the right way!" I looked toward the old staircase and swung on the brass rail. I swung right onto that old staircase and landed with a loud thud. Within moments, my nephew was by my side, climbing those old stairs. As we stepped on each stair, it creaked and groaned and the nails that were holding it together would pop out. The old lady cackled above us and said, "Yes, yes that is the right way." "But it's hard," I complained. She just kept saying, "Yes, yes that is the right way!" I was so frustrated. I didn't want to go this way. I was scared. I was afraid of falling. What if I failed? However, I kept going. I made it to the top! And guess what? There was no gap. Just solid flooring for me to stand on. Then, I woke up!

This is my interpretation:

I used to be a strong believer in God. I used to attend church regularly and I volunteered my time helping in the church. I prayed daily and read my Bible. Somewhere in the rush of life, I have forgotten HIM. We stopped going to church because we are TOO busy. Okay, I know that is not a good excuse, but we are just worn out and tired by week's end. I felt that I could just take the easy way out (the escalator) but even when that route proved to be hard, I thought I could do it alone. I neglected to remember, HIM, the One who created us. The One who forgives our sins. The One who shows us His grace and love. When I was finally willing to listen, I still endured a difficult road(the old staircase) but in the end I found HIM! HE is all I need! He is my firm foundation! Today has been a different day! I have had energy. I have more joy. I have a skip in my step. Even though today was a tough one, I knew that at the end of the day, HE would be here for me, to love and accept me, no matter what.

My life has new meaning today and I am glad that God has given me the gift of dreaming in detail!

1 comment:

Jen said...

Thank you for sharing all that, Janelle. We really need to get together...